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Sunday, December 31, 2006

What a PPV! All matches that were aired were knockouts. Non-stop action all the way. Liddell really deserved to win that belt. He was giving Tito a chance to come back and he did at times, but it wasn't enough for the defending champion. What's next for Chuck? A match against the Dean of mean looks inevitable. Then there's Rampage Jackson to look forward to. If Chuck wins that rematch against Rampage, there's no one else to face. Unless Vanderlei or Shogun transfers to UFC from Pride, there really is no good match for Chuck.

Anyway, just a few more hours till New Year. A lot of people make a big deal out of it. You know, going to all these places to watch fireworks and stuff. Thats not me. I don't really much care about that. Am I the only one that feels like its just another day? I should've gone with my brother to LV, but what's the point? I'm gonna lose money there anyway. Money which I don't really have now.

Looking forward, there is one thing that should go for me. Thats the imminent move to a computer job. My brother is trying to set me up with their company. I'll be in sales, but not exactly. I really don't know what the job description is, but I'm stoked about it. I believe I need a change from the retail industry. All the bickering and problems and the mad stress is getting to me. Not that I can't handle it, its just that no one seems to be on my side. Feels like everybody's against me. It is true that I'm everybody's boss and no one's friend. Mere acquaintances. But looking back, I seem to have made all the right decisions before leading up to my promotion here at the store. This little hiatus I took brought some persepective to me. I need a change, badly. I sure hope this change of job description would highlight my strengths and help the company in the long run.

Well, those are my hopes for the New Year. Now, thats how you "celebrate" the new year. Looking for your self and trying to guide yourself in the new year. Not with fireworks.

But thats just me...

Saturday, December 30, 2006

Today is UFC 66. I can't wait for the main event on that, Ortiz vs. Liddell. That is a way to end the new year, I tell ya. My sister's here and we'll be watching the PPV event later.

We're watching "Goal" on Blu-ray right now. It looks good and the movie is crisp.

I couldn't believe I needed to go to the grocery again. I'll probably go as soon as I come back from the New Years at my Mom's. She asked for me to drop by. So I guess I'll be spending it over there.

My birthday's on the 3rd. I'll spend it here at home. I'm used to being alone. I cherish it. Its me-time.

I'll give a quick update as soom as the PPV is over. This time I plan on keeping my promise of giving an update, unlike last time.

Friday, December 29, 2006

Closure: A feeling of completeness; the experience of an emotional conclusion, usually to a difficult period.

I've been carrying this torch for almost 4 years now. It has to end. I think it did. And I will use this forum to end it... I'm sorry...


I'm sorry if i'm always out of sight
Or fail to kiss you goodnight
I never meant to leave you
I'm sorry if i've taken you for granted
For the crazy things i've said
I'm sorry I should have loved you instead


I'm sorry...

Wednesday, December 27, 2006

I'm on my 2nd day of my self-imposed vacation. Whoo-Hooo!!! Time for me to relax. I was supposed to head on to Vegas but I changed my mind. Do you know how much they charge for a plane ticket to Vegas this time of the year? Its crazy...

I spent Christmas eve with my mom and sister. My brother showed up Christmas day. He sure is getting big. I liked going to Mom's. Home cooking at its finest. Our version of soul food.

Anyway, I gave my gifts. I got what I expected in return. It was nice.

Oh yeah, I got the new Blu-ray player from Sony. I'll tell you what. I like it better than my Toshiba HD player. For one thing, it played my really old discs. That alone is already a plus. I haven't really looked into the BD discs. But the ones I bought were the ones I really liked considering they won't be available on HD because they were released by Disney and Lionsgate. I might watch Kingdom of Heaven or Black Hawk down later. I'm really impressed about the Sony BD player that I made it into my main player in the living room and moved my HD player to the bedroom. Main player is kinda relative since I do most of my viewing in the bedroom. The colors the BD player generates or pushes from the disc is awesome. I should say, they're about similar with the HD player.

Its been a while since I've been posted. I'll try to write some more since I'm on vacation. I got no excuse not to write.

Oh yeah, UFC 66 is coming up. I guess that is whats gonna keep me from going to Mom's this weekend. Have to watch that live. Its gonna be cool. Can't wait.

I'm liking this series Bones. Not because Emily Deschanel is cute, she is. But the story and science behind it is awesome. I always like series involving science. I have this fascination towards it. Maybe because I always wanted to be one when I was young. What can I say, what could've been....

Anyway.... I need to keep in touch with my guys at work...

Monday, December 18, 2006

Last Saturday was my Mom's birthday. I didn't ask her how old she was... but since I'm in my early 30s, I could only assume. Anyway, I was dumbfounded when I changed the channel of their TV to one of the HD channels. It wasn't as bright as mine was. Curiously, I did some research. It was easy enough. The morons from the cable company gave her the wrong cables to connect the box to her TV. They should've given her compnonent wires instead of the regular coax cable. For a month and a half, they were under the impression that what they thought was HD wasn't really HD. My mom wasn't impressed at all but when I told her that they got duped. She got pissed. So I told her I'd go to CC to get some cable for my Blu-ray and she could use it for the meantime.

So off we went. We first went to this grocery. Then off to CC. I had my navi so I told them, we wouldn't get lost. My navi said to take a left and a right and go straight. So thats what we did. A 5 mile trek which should just be a couple of blocks away went straight to the mountain top of San Jose! We went through the frickin hills. Did I ever mention that I was afraid of heights? The road became narrower and narrower. It was the worst driving experience of my life! And through it all, I was following the directions of my Navi! When Lola (my navi) said we reached our destination, it was a dark house in the hills. We all started laughing because it was probably a hundred yards straight down if we went forward, we'd have landed on top of CC if we did that! It was a crazy adventure.

All in all, the trip to my Mom's was a treat. Bonding as usual. I love these family get togethers. I don't know, call me old-fashioned but I still value that family closeness. I may like my space, but still I yearn for family stuff.

I get to spend my Christmas there again. After Sunday, I'm on a two-week vacation from work. I can't wait to relax a bit and not think of work. I'll take that...

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

Yesterday was looking-for-old-acquaintances day. Like a man dying in a few days, I was purposely looking for the past on the internet. It took me a while but I found them. I looked at myspace and googled the heck out of them, but I couldn't find them at first. Then I thought about the root of all networking... no, not icq. Friendster! Sure enough, there they were.

I, like the movie Lake House, am finding about stuff years late. If I knew that they were here in the Bay Area two years ago, I would've mended ways... but I didn't. I, like a stupid moron, found out late, and am now kicking myself profusely.

Closure. The search for it drives people to the hills and hide in seclusion. Which is what I did, I guess. I couldn't think straight. I couldn't get into new relationships. I'm textbook. Let me share something with you: I, like a handful of people in this world, believe that there is only 1 woman for every man. I believe I found that one woman, and I let her go. And now, I'm chasing Amy. Even though you try and psych yourself up to go out with this person, you know that they wouldn't hold a candle to THE one. So what's the point? That's my life in a nutshell. Everything else, my job, my friends, my toys, are all background noise to this delirium that I'm in.

Until I get a hold of these people, I go head-first in this downward spiral that I'm in and will continue to lose faith in all that is good.

Yes, yesterday was a good day... It felt almost fulfilling... like a chapter of my life was done, well, almost done.... still need to finish it though...

In times like this, I resort to song....


In the morning, when I rise, give me Jesus.
You can have all this world, give me Jesus.
When I am alone, give me Jesus.
You can have all this world, just give me Jesus.
When I come to die, give me Jesus.
You can have all this world, just give me Jesus.
- Jeremy Camp